Making A Bad Situation Into A Good One

MENTAL HEALTH COMES FIRST.

Although it's my day off and I should be happy, I've been thinking all day 'As much as I want to be in bed this means I'll be working all weekend' and after all day going through my work app and sending messages back and forth to my team (what a loser day off I know) I started to realise why I'm in the position I'm in..... And I got a gush of achievement.

 I got a voice note from someone I'm working really closely with at work and consider a good friend about how they had achieved loads over the day and did everything I asked him (nicely) to do and at the end he said 'come in tomorrow and do your magic' and at that point I was like HOLY SMOKES. Not a bad 'Holy Smokes' but a good one because although I know the team and have for a while I've actually only been Topman's (only) visual merchandiser for a week and a bit and I already feel like such a respected part of the team and it's the bestest feeling especially as I haven't felt that in a long time.....

When I say 'making a bad situation into a good one' it was aimed at a lot of aspects of my life like my job, my relationships and friendships but mainly based on my mental health. I was the visual merchandiser for mainly Topshop and Topman before converting entirely to Topman and the team was a lot different. We had a much larger team of about 7 compared to my team of 1 now (with a lot of support that I make help me out haha) and it was so difficult to really know your place. My job is so fast paced that (in Topshop) you don't get much time for your development and you have to go through so many people that you never really grasp the real reason as to why you are re-merching the wall you did just yesterday and so for me I felt I need to take the contract for Topman and focus on progression and most importantly to me.... learning why I do what I do. 

Since moving to Topman I feel important in my role but not more important then anyone else because we come as a team (does that make sense? probs not) and we all know where we all stand and want to lift each other up rather than watch us fall. The same can't be said about Topshop and that's not me slating the people but it's just the way it goes in a large and very fast-pace store and you'll get that anywhere! I respect all of the Topshop team but I knew for me that my best way to progress within my job and the business would to make the brave step into Topman and I haven't looked back so far. 

When it comes to my relationship status I've had an interesting coping mechanism (to bash boys on my blog apparently) since the last person I was seeing turned out to be someone I really didn't expect him to be but I've turned the page and now focusing on me and although that bad part of my life will still pop every now and again to remind me of him/us (WHO HAS A FAMILY COMPANY WITH A MILLION LORRIES THAT DRIVE PAST YOU EVERYDAY AND WORK RIGHT WHERE YOU PARK ANYWAY) but I've been on a date and I'm focusing on my career so really that time of my life is coming to an end and I'm trying to make the best out of this single life situation as best as I can. 

Basically you have to rely on yourself to make your own happiness because once you allow other people to do that then when they let you down it's a lot harder to get back up without wanting it all back again and you SHOULD never dwell on the past but always be excited for what is to come. Making a bad situation into a good one applies to every aspect of life and although some bad situations are harder to mend know that if you want to be happy then one day it will come to you because controlling your life is a lot more fulfilling and healthy then letting someone else control it for you. 

Soph x